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Also, I knew you wouldn’t message me. Or call me. Or anything. 

It still disappoints me.

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It would never have worked out between us and we always knew it but it’s still sad to understand and see it.

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I could kiss you and it wouldn’t be sexual at all.

On the other hand, I hung out with Sam and David and Thomas and Kengo and it was fun and lovely and nice. :) Mountain View ramen and walking around and Viet coffeeshop and EDS chilling.

Yay :)

Just watched The Dark Knight Rises and The Amazing Spiderman at a drive through movie theatre please.

It was lots of fun; got home at around 2:30am. Movies were okay.

‘m tired now. Review written later.

I think I have just realized that it will never work between us (again) and it makes me sad because it’s like we failed and I failed and I tried really really hard and it’s like nothing I did ever mattered or matters or will ever matter.

han-alexander:

You know what. I hope you read this. I hope you know how little you’ve done for me yet I always put you before everything. I hope you know how many torturing nights you put me through and expect me to always be there for you the next day. I hope you know I don’t have to be dealing with all of this, yet I am. I put my priorities aside and basically put all the time and effort I have into you. And I hope you know that besides the words that you have given me, you’ve given me nothing. The time you give me doesn’t make me feel any better because more than half of those times you’re hiding me like I am some kind of an unwanted monster. I’m not asking for you to give me everything. I’m not asking for anything at all. I just need some reassurance but all you’ve been giving me are doubts. It is nights like this where you become so ignorant of my feelings that it makes me extremely upset with you and I just want to stop trying.

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